I'm tired!!

Was nearly falling asleep when one of the job compy called up ._. totally can't sleep again.. Zzz..

Partly cause Hengky gone come back ltr.. I really miss him alot.. Haiss

But

Training later =( sian...


Recently so much stuff has been happening...

Losing match cause playing with some DON EVEN KNOW unknowns.. Will vomit blood please.. Please NO MORE OF THIS SHIT... Farking dulan.. To make it worst, always playing against known teams.. ARHH.. Fark this.. Though we won 1 game but im so pissed off, imagine having someone KS you almost all the frag with 1hit and to make it more funni they even on ulti to ks, its alrite to ks but im running with u guys so poor and ur all being so fark up.. FARK TAT IDIOT KEN^3 cb dulan.. Not just u nia..

Seriously it just makes me emo and dulan with them ._. The last game i totally give up to my teamates, me and Jj just went to do some stupid stuff like,

Chiong hero and press hold let them kill us..
Chiong dagon nc..
Chiong roshan..
Chiong to enemy base..

It's been so long since i last did all this crazy stuff..

Pub will be alot better then them..


Was having my last pub before bed but i'm like not even micro-ing.. Tired!! and the game 3v5 to 3v4 drag for like 100mins!! Anyway that gosu Sb micro the cw too, weirdest thing is that he's from other country.. t.t Wasn't even doing my part, sry about it esp sher was in that game..

SoooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooo irrated by some friend, totally seems to ruin my life.. I just wanne live peacefully and do my own stuff please.. Give me some space.. I'm not ur GF or Daughter For godsake.. But i doesnt wanne hurt ur feelings..
Kept quiet for the usual me, thanks to those with ur warnings and concern, i was so suprised that he said such stuff.. It just seems like 2 sided scary please..

I just want Hengky!! I just love Hengky!!

Been really busy this 2 days doing card and poster for him, tired baking cake but turns out bad.. lolx.. i gave up!! Still need to pei some friend to dota cause his bored so it's bad to reject.. So much stuff to do.. Doesn't feels like dota-ing recently cause Hengky's not around and to tink of all those matches i been thru, im like totally LOST interest in dota.. Isit time to quit? I dono!! Worst of all, i tink im gone feed and sat is paym..

So much for dota, so much for spoilting mood.. So much of quitting dota.. So much of affecting my life.. So much of Emo stuff.. So much of missing.. So much of irrating..

With ♥ From Suzanna [9:34 AM]

I miss you!!

Never realise how much u affected my life when u isn't around..

I miss you!!

Never once uncontactable towards u..

I miss you!!

Never once felt so lost when u isnt here..

I miss you!!

Back to emo-ing when u isn't around..

I miss you!!

I Miss you dear and i really do..

I miss you !!

ARHH..

I miss you!!

If only time can pass any faster..

I miss you!!

If only ur right here now..

I miss you!!




I have never understand what love is..

I miss you!!

till i found you..

I miss you!!

you are the most precious gift i ever receive

I miss you!!


Wondering if u will fetch me after training on thur..

I miss you!!

Every secs tat passes brings me closer to see-ing you..

I miss you!!

I just needed to hear ur voice.. Ur hug..

I miss you!!

Emox.. Missing you!!

With ♥ From Suzanna [11:20 PM]

Been so tired recently.. By the time i reach home, im already so worn out so not much time to blog.. TIRED!!

Thursday~


Thursday seems so great for last week cause there isn't any training for both of us and dear pon school cause of me =x as i requested cause i was emo-ing badly that dae.. Thanks alot.. but still we meet up late ._.

Went to Suntec to shop around before heading to Esplande nearby that hawker to eat, dear order so much of food.. so FULL!! I'm missing it now =x hehe..

Headed to the river side after awhile to find a spot to sit.. Was watching people crossing the river to the other side of the stage, seems so scary as the journey is quite far.. After awhile of chatting, there is a on-going performance by some guy using just sand to draw out pic and changing it to another image.. Cool and its petty nice.. Thanks for sending me home again.. muack..

Friday~


Wasn't suppose to meet Hengky as i wasn't feeling well.. slight fever =( Somehow their training was cancel that dae.. Dear went to dye his hair before meeting up at Hougang =\ Sry was emo-ing on the way there.. UR FAULT!!

Feels so weird when i saw him @@ a new hair cut and his hair is dye red!! It's just weird, went to Bugis to take neo-print before heading to Bugis Village to eat.. Saw really cute necklace there but cant buy.. so broke arhh.. =( I'm gona get it the nxt time.. Thanks for sending me home =)

Sat~


Was quarrling with mummy as im gona overnite again but it got better when dear came all the way down to fetch me before heading to Cine for their Nus compy.. It's really sweet of him.. Thanks..

Was chatting up with Jj the first time before headed down to eat with the rest..
They played 1 game against some unknowns and it's done for the day.. It's stupid seriously.. They won anyway.. Was suppose to have training that dae but somehow we cant contact Jy and Cyn nve came.. Maybe it's just too last min..

Headed to Eg but its occupy with CS ppl ._. so headed down to Hq while the others was eating, both of us went to play some fun maps.. FUN but he keep screening me when his dead.. I HATE YOU!! HAHAHA.. 2 games of (-spar) and I LOSE both.. arhh.. why tio sai hero =( i wan some strength hero so i won't die.. lolx.. Was playing badly esp the 2nd game.. LOL.. Cm is 1 of my weakest hero.. Well emo-ed..

The rest headed to Eg to continue playing but i told him i don wanne play anymore.. Emo.. Went to the Mac nearby to check the if the gingerbread man is out but the toy is already CHANGE.. ._. since when isit out.. More emo.. I wanted the gingerbread man.. k i know im childish but its CUTE.. =( so much for today..

WTB MAC GINGERBREAD MAN TOY, SELL ME IF ANYONE OF U HAVE.. THANKS!!

After eating went to his house as i was so emo, saw bj on the bus btw.. Got alot better after so much fun at his house.. lolx.. <- u know wad i mean.. Bully u ftw.. 2x.. Went for supper after that, gosu fish soup and staty for supper.. FAT!!

Sunday~


Slept 2-3hrs and what's worst when i keep waking up hearing switches being switch on and off, hearing people walking really loud outside his room but when im awake the sounds are all gone.. Fark lor, its like every 10mins i have to wake up and i gotten myself really bad headache when i woke up, went back to slp while his bathing the same thing happen again ._. but it gotten better though.. Eerie..

Stupid compy takes 4hrs to start.. Waste time lo i can slp longer =x but anyway both of us find a spot and fell aslp.. Too tired i suppose.. Saw a friend which i nve saw him b4 in real life.. Their first game was against rev0, well dN* won.. Was feeling so tired i keep fell aslp when they are playing, they lose their 2nd match against Mirco.. Bad mistake makes them lose, they are doing really well for the start by downing 2 raxs really soon but mistake and keeps drag on so opp got stronger.. It's really wasted cause they can win de =( But still i think they played really well le..

The others headed down to Eg but we went to watch the performance at the same place again, thinking that it might be diff but its still the same.. Nice anyway.. My eye was so irrated i took off 1 of my lens, so weird.. Walk our way to the Merlion side before settling down, after awhile he send me home and i fell aslp on the bus without knowing ._. So tired that i seems like im dying =X Thanks for sending me again =)

So emo last nite cause i callled him 3x and he fell aslp while talking for tat 3x..
=( Hate you!!

Mon~


Darling called me up so early to chat awhile as he's going to Malaysia with his friends for a few days.. Feeling so empty all of a sudden.. Known him for so long his always a phone call or a msg away but suddenly this few days his like gona be mia.. I'm gone miss you alot and worst of all there are alot happening there recently which really add to my worries, wanted to ask him whether if its possible to cancel the trip but didn't cause i know u been wanting to go.. Hais.. Hoping to get ur call every nite to lessen my worries..

Love you dear.. Thanks for doing so much for me..

Recently i lost my mood to dota and this sat there is compy again.. Every weekend is so spoilt, stuck with compy even you too.. We cant even go out.. I wanne go zoo =( Dono for how long i have been saying this but now you are having holidae and im gone work soon, not much time le ba.. sian.. HATE COMPY.. Wcg is a burden, dono if teamate are leaving..

Arhh.. headache.. till then..

With ♥ From Suzanna [9:57 AM]

Went out with my mum to eat some not so gosu food and headed to buy my bro's project stuff before headed down to collect my photo.. Some stupid wulu place and worst of all the pic is farking ugly Zzzz.. waste money!!

Later on headed down to Amk Hub to walk around and went to eat some er xin food ._." Haven eat any good food today ._." Some luck Zzzz

Went to shop around before i call up darling to come down and meet me for movies and worst of all i thot the cinema is open already but haven =x Well.. still he's already half way down le..

It's like the first time i intro a bf to my mum for this 20yrs o.O, Later on we headed down to Bishan to watch fantanic 4, the movie wasn't really nice but not bad.. Not to my expection again.. Went to eat and headed home after that.. Thanks for sending me home again =)

Well..

Was emo-ing now cause my mum doesn't approve our r/s and some other stuff included.. Quite sad ba though i didn't thot things will turn out so bad..

Pm-ed a few frends to chat about it and they told me if that guy really loves u then time will tell and prove to ur mum, his finally being able to support u and stuff..

There isn't anithing i can do right now but let time tells ba..

So much for todae.. so much..

With ♥ From Suzanna [12:51 AM]

Finally!!

Im too tired recently to blog down everything that happens.. So much to say..

Went to Hengky house after thur training as it's getting really late.. sLept really late that dae and woke up like 7+am -.-" so tired.. Poor darling have to wake up so early to accompany me home..

So crowded in the morning, it's like i haven been taking MRT so early for quite some time.. lolx.. Later on he went to my house to wait for me to prepare and pack my stuff before cab-ing down as we are already very late.. sRy darling, im always making u late for compy and training =\

Reach the wulu lan shop and dear was registering, i saw our team name appear on the list, thinking that we might have gotten in but it's all just a misunderstanding as they mention though it appears on the paper but it doesn't means we gotten in.. Lame though ._."

The lan was really hot and stuffy, worst of all its crowded with lots of people ._." exciting match against xqR and they won ltr on against some sai team, was behind watching others playing and the most funni draft i ever saw was omni and zeus @@ i wonder how they earn.. lolx.. anyway.. Was kinda suprise some guy asking me to be feature under the gamer gurl section but rejected.. lolx.. kinda regret haha =x

After their game, hengky and i went home while the others headed to eat, so hot and sticky.. I NEED TO BATH PLS!! lolx..

Went to nearby his house to walk around, so nice he brought me jelly and went to buy some tibits for tml, as we intend to camp home for movies..

Later on Cyn called me asking if we wanted to join some wulu compy.. Asterisk was playing too, finally we gt a chance to play against them and darling and the rest join too.. lolx..

So much for tml plans.. =\

Sat~

Cab down with lei and sher b4 heading down for breakfast, still need tabao for the rest and worst of all we doesnt even know where the place is ._." gotten so lost..

Some stuff happens and dN* was playing first against ming they all and we gurls went shopping.. hehe..

Our first match was against Asterisk, the only diff was ice was playing for them and we got lei too but then the match was more like 1v5 still.. Ice makes the diff.. lolx.. Still im hoping for a 5v5 gurl match some days =)

Well for me, really didnt use wl for quite some times and some mistakes.. Well.. so much to learn then.. Will train up more heros and stuff.. but still i tink we did really well tat dae =) Gj everyone..

dN* was playing against gI and half way thru they gotten dc as in ALL OF THEM!! But still dN* is winning luckily there isnt any RR if not its gone to be another long match so darling and me went to TM to eat while the rest when to sub-way..

After eating when to shop around since tere is still so much time available.. Saw a really cute teddy bear and to my suprise he brought it for me though at first he gotten the wrong one and we asked for a change =x lolx.. but thanks for being sweet.. hehe.. TEDDY BEAR FTW.. Thanks alot darling..

Headed back and they play against a.H.. they didnt use their GODLY OD.. lolx.. amazed =x they are so STRONG sia they won asterisk with ice.. Anyway dN* won..
So late liao ._." headed home wanted to watch movie but after awhile we went to slp..
Ur fault, haven watch finish =\ )

But still thanks alot for giving me the keyboard, felt bad cause after playing for 1 whole day u have to give it to me..

Sun~

Was really late that day but luckily was just in time.. They gotten 3rd, their last match all no mood le nearly lose but won though... Already so late le after it ended.. But thanks alot for sending me home =)

Mon~

Ytd went to Vivo for job interview with Boney, pay isnt that good so i suppose i'll find something else.. =) It's sweet of dear to come all the way down to accompany me, went to eat and ltr on shop around before finding a place to settle down to chit chat.. Wee got cheese cakie again.. =) And thanks Boney for ur company.. lolx..

Hengky darling,

Sry about last night, was really emo and upset.. Too much of compy so little time for me, every weekend ur busy busy busy.. Haiss.. so is the coming week.. Well sorry for not being understanding enuff but still i love u.. I have given u my word..

I want more teddy bear.. Win 1 compy = 1teddy bear x=

Muack..

With ♥ From Suzanna [12:40 AM]

Back to blogging once again.. Too much of emo-ing stuff to handle recently, can't find the mood to blog..

Cab down to E.G, late once again but it's nice of dear to wait for me at the taix stand.. Thanks..

Well.. i really nve expect to be able to talk to Lz again cause of what had happen but thanks lz for being so forgiving and sherica for helping.. Hehe Love Sher..

Lz, hope that still our friendship is there and i'm really sry and pls go and c a doctor soon.. TakE care.. We still love ue.. hehe..

Played a few games todae but loses all of them, well.. i guess we know what's our problem but still we played really badly todae compare to the other games and well im playing badly too.. But still we play well for our last game.. KILL NAM FTW xD~

Went to eat before headed to Hengky house as it was already so late le but tml he have to pei me go home again.. Poor thing..

Hope everything goes smooth in life, recently tere is just too much stuff that makes me really don feels good..

Still

thanks alot darling for doing so much for me, for still being there no matters what happen.. I love u and that won't change for now or even 50yrs down the road if im alive.. hehe...

So much for todae..

LOVE GINGERBREAD MAN!!!

With ♥ From Suzanna [1:47 AM]

SO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tired!! Dying soon..

Sat- CAPL

Woke up at 7am, 7AM Ok.. so early ._. went to eat nearby his house before heading down to Cine.. Tired cause not having enuff slp.. t.t

Everyone was tired, lose our first game to some really sai team.. Fark up feelings =( i really got to train up properly.. Was really emo-ing badly cause i keep tio caught, have to learn to ctrl.. Anyway i tink we are just off-form badly..

After game everyone was so emo, walk our way to eg while Sher and i was slowly walking behind talking about alot of stuff.. After we reach Eg, cyn and jy went home so we headed for Hq as Eg has no coms.. Play 2 pub with darling against his bro's they all and we lose ._. cause we have nerds in our team -.-" Lc people i tink.. Where gt tinker first item bkb 1.. Lot's of cute people, wanted to win cause just lose compy to some better then LC team.. sAd..

Headed down to Eg cause the guys have coms le and i was sitting behind them watching them play.. Sometimes do learn something de.. lolx.. Was feeling quite tired, so i close my eyes at times and woke up when there are engagement =X But soon i really fell asleep and woke up suddenly.. Was awake the 2nd game when darling was nerding with WL.. BAN HIS WL PLS... =X they lose the game againt rev0 but the 3rd game was more funny cause darling was scolding some people and tio kb.. lolx.. Keep asking Hengky to call him, why would people call him to quarrel, kinda no brain or perhaps he have none.. LOL

Went to eat tou hua and some other stuff.. so long Q.. Dear tabao home before heading off to wait for the bus.. Having slight headache too cause i can't take long journey bus.. Watch tv and headed to bed after that.. which is like so late again..

Sundae- CAPL

So happy when u came out from the toilet, u didnt break ur promise.. Hehe.. I'm bad, i ask him to wear lidat todae.. so shuai.. so cute.. SO SHUAI!!! For this moment i will love u more then ginerbread man for sure.. Hehehe

Woke up late and was still slacking on the bed for quite sometimes until his mum knock his door.. Went to eat before going down, thinking that we are consider quite late but when we reach tere, its like so wulu.. Headed to B.K to slack while waiting for the others to arrive..

Their first opp is against some unknown teams, easy win for them but the 2nd game was against Zenith, they lose.. Went to buy mrs muffin cookies cause i feels that he wont eat he muffin and i brought the famous amous before but its rather exp for mrs muffin =X and headed to cheers to get him his fav drink i suppose?

Went to eat at the foodcourt before heading back to watch the final of Zenith against XqR.. Zenith won..Wudi Spec..

Went to Heeren after that to walk awhile, saw a heels that i might buy and headed home after that, really tired.. Feeling realli paper..

Dear went off at Outram Park, wanted to call u but hp no batt ._. feeling really emo cause after so mani days tgt, im going home again.. Why do we have to part, i just hate the feeling..

Went to dota with darling they all against Lux they all and my vs is farking CMI, they aso bth liao.. But after every farking engagement i realise my mistake, sometimes i take longer to understand cause im SLOW or dono why muz swap, why cannot this.. But i LEARN.. I don use Vs anymore so sIan t.t sRy guys... but still we won.. hehe.. Went to pub, was using Rk.. feeding cause I cant kill them.. their hero is sha bu liao 1 or tio ks? sian la..

I'm so farking tired when i reach home but i just doesnt wanne sleep.. WHY?? EMO!! so much stuff to settle for tml.. And sub-ing team mate out is the hardest thing to do but then i have to do it ._." Anyway training hard for the coming gxl, i don wanne die like fark again and emo..

I MISS MY DARLING, he went to sleep and pai seh me dota alone.. so sian i miss ginerbread man so much and i miss my teddy bear so much.. Emo!! why u go slp but cant tell u to pei wo =( so emo now.. shld i call u? haiss...

ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Tell me im not too bored and mad!! Tell me..

I need a job soon!! Any to recommend??

I LOVE GINERBREADMAN!! SO CUTE CAN!!! I know im so obess with the ginerbreadman lolx.. don hate me but his just too cute but not u.. =( I even set his desktop wallpaper with GINER pic... hehe..

I WANT GINERBREAD MAN SOFT TOY, BUY FOR ME AND IM ALL YOURS!!

With ♥ From Suzanna [10:29 PM]

Was suppose to have our training at 3pm but i was late so was the others, in the end Lz got scolded because of us.. sorry about it girl..

Not wanting to talk much about it..

Anyway we lose our first match against Nam but won the 2nd.. Wee~ won our first lan match.. Cause Nam suX and jia jia pp, that's so uncute =X

We are really improving every game together, was really glad.. Eg training room is lke sauna, going there every Thursday to slim down.. lolx..

After that went to dinner and 1 more game before heading home..

ARHH I HATE hengky- abandoned me at his house.. aRHH

Anyway Goodluck gurls for tml capl.. Let's win

With ♥ From Suzanna [12:52 AM]